i used to be so arty

now i have a full time job. i feel like i am getting more hard arsed, more eat-work-sleep just fit in, do they things they tell ya n whatever. i dunno, i see my friends and family less, i dont see my lover at all but i talk to her every day. i dunno. i dont even feel worried, its just a change i know i would have hated to see in myself, and i guess i also do hope i spin out and have amazing adventures and break out of all these structures and stuff. but also. i'm fairly happy here, eating, dworking, sleeping, playing when i can, loving when i do, i think the work just takes up so much of my head i can't undo it. i dunno, ha, what a train of thought. trains gunna crash into a pillow. X g'nite cyberspace